30.11.2005

When the Horizon is not Horizontal Anymore...

Sometimes, when you feel that things are going on a way that you'd prefer to be different. What is better to do? Let things on that way as ordinary, or make efforts and radical changes to blow up with a new idea and a new situation.

Humors are so difficult to control. So why when you wake up in the morning and it's rainy, you feel tired and depressed and you just won't to leave your couch? Yeah it happens to all of us, because we are quite influencable, and tiny events can take great importance in our lives. And what's this small thing that can keep our humor in a constant positive position? Don't Know! Sometimes it can be a smile but sometimes it can be a lot more than a smile.

Another thing the I've noticed is that when bad and depressing events begin to happen, it doesn't stop anymore. From small things such as losing your keys until big things like having a terrible accident...all the bad things agree to happen on one day and to make our humor at its least level. The consequence cannot be different from a terrific bad face and ideas. But just imagine one second; if all those bad things don't happen at one time, and that each day one small bad thing happens...it could be more awful because it will destroy all your days!!! Isn't it right? So, don't be so mad about those days.

My first reflexion was about profound choices that you make in your life and you don't really have the certainty that is the right thing. This doubt comes generally from moments of loliness where you think about the topic and you feel even that it doesn't answer to your criteria, or that you may have made the wrong choice. I talk here about a life-carrer, big decisions or a partner. The big question is that, decisions that we made in our lives are not absolutely rational, so why do we have to apply logic to a decision which is not basically logical? Why do I have to broke up with my partner because of a logical decision if I'm with him because I love him (which is not trational)? You feel this kind of distortion in the decisions that are taken. However, sometimes we need to evaluate our evolution, and the only way is to use logic, either for rational or irrational situations. It's a difficult task, because we, as human beings, have a tendency to deny trues that doesn't please us. With so many pains, we can conclude sometimes that a change has to be made in order to get out of this situation of imcompleteness.
If we are brave enough, we take this change as a necessary step in our life and we just execute it. Solely, we wonder sometimes, what could have happened if I didn't made that choice that have changed my life? Would my situation have been better if I kept my ancient life? It's our perpetual need of being reassured that puhes us to ask suh questions.

One little more advice, just do it as you feel it. I appreciate that people do things from their hearts and forget a little about rational and logic ways to do things. And believe me, things done from the heart are always the best.

Hind El Gaidi